mirror

mirror, on the wall

In order to keep myself accountable, I used to ask myself, "Am I, and will I, be proud of this decision?" More than not, that filter for the big decisions about work, love, family, and friends has helped me live without regret.

Meanwhile, I am still, if not more, depraved. It's easy for me to stop at that filter, and feed my own pride. What goodness am I giving to other people when I am only avoiding my own regrets?

Recently, I've built up a high tolerance for others' and my own nastiness.

I think I also need to be asking, "Am I bringing dignity to this situation?" If I were to commit to allowing every moment for myself and the people around me to be dignifying, my life would be radically different.

Where can I start? I can't even get through ten minutes, alone. Five minutes, when I'm around others.